Christmas Blah

It's not much of a Christmas feeling this Christmas Eve. Tried to make it the best that I could, but I guess when things happen that you really can't control it fires at you even when you're trying to please both sides. I stomach feels twisted, not in the cheery mood I thought I was going to be in, not spending quality time with the one person I love the most....pretty much this Christmas Eve sucks. Just hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.....I guess I'm not going to hold my breathe on that one.